Wednesday, June 27, 2007

love you...

Someone I love called me last night and told me about a crisis in their life. I felt like saying, "Why the hell didn't you tell me this sooner? I've been feeling it for days"!
I've mentioned that I believe I empathically "pick up" on people's pains. Well it appears it doesn't matter whether they are physical or emotional pains. And the closer I am (emotionally, not proximity, btw) to the individual, the more intense the "symptoms".

This "someone"is very close to me, very important. This is potentially a life-altering crisis. I do believe this person is seeing only negative possibilities right now. I told them "it hasn't happened yet and you don't know that it will... breathe..." (hah, practice what you preach, peg. Therapist heal thyself!)

You know... it's one thing to get a vague feeling of pain or discomfort from acquaintenances/clients/strangers, but when it's someone I love... oh my, it really throws me for a loop. For several days, I've been having intense headaches, neck pain, my jaw hurts from gritting my teeth, my back has been tight... I generally don't have these problems, well at least not since starting school.
I'm still feeling kinda "tender" today. I'm still feeling overwhelmed and frightened (my feelings? theirs? some of both?).

Now that I know what's going on.... I'm not internalizing it so much. I guess now I'm seeing it as a problem to solve. I want so badly to be able to help... at the very least... I want to hold them.

I wish they had called me earlier!


what might we do, sir?
if we had some time... time to
pleasure each other?

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Winster games...

I thought I'd share a new gaming site I found, it's called Winster. The poker game is pretty cool. You can share cards with other players. It's a pretty brainless game but it's fun.

If you use my LINK here, I get points so I can continue playing for free.

So far I haven't found anything bad or annoying about the site and you can play free each day for a limited time.

Check it out!

Monday, June 25, 2007

all good things come to those who wait...

yeah... right....
want to give you time
it doesn't work so well though
but I AM trying

new toy...

you were maybe hoping for a sex toy?? ... yeah, me too. No such luck, Lately!


I just got this:

Blackberry 7100i

Now, you know, I really want an iPhone (who doesn't?)... but I do NOT want to go to Cingular. I wanted a Treo, but I do NOT want to change to Sprint (why the hell can't Sprint/Nextel get together on their equipment and services??). Basically, I like Nextel... Period. But the only options for devices like these are the Blackberry 7100i and the Blackberry 7520.
Do I NEED this phone? Probably not. But I really despised my other phone (the i850 by Motorola).

So far, I think I like the 7100i. Getting my email on my phone is pretty cool. There is no camera, but I didn't use it that much. Do kinda miss it though. It has bluetooth, that's cool.

I have this:

The one thing about this phone I really hate is that real audio ringtones are not supported, only monophonic & polyphonic tones. At least, they SAY that will be remedied in the next software version... yeah, right. I'm not holding my breath.

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Continuing Education...

I'm in a weekend seminar, Medical Intuition Level I with Kim Seer.

A practical hands-on series that provides skills you can use
immediately. Learn proven techniques on how to see into the physical body and its systems with incredible accuracy.
Find out with pinpoint precision what is causing the body’s imbalance. Learn specific methods and techniques to rectify illness and disease.
Hands-on experience overseen by highly trained Instructors.
Receive feedback on your accuracy.
Learn practical tools for the expansion of your intuition.
Advance your healing work to a higher level.
This training blends well with all modalities. No prior experience necessary.

I'll let you know what I think when the weekend is over.

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Quote for the day...

I'm not afraid of dying. I just don't want to be there when it happens.

direction... please...

torture it is then
what is it you want from me?
begging for contact

Monday, June 18, 2007

talk to me...

some tortures I love
switches, paddles, ropes and chains
neglect is not one

'nagging' feeling...

what is your reason?
too unwilling to give it
that thing that I need.

Sunday, June 17, 2007

lazy sunday...

sitting on my ass, watching movies...

now that's the way to spend a Sunday when you've been working and going to school non-stop.

Here's one of the best movies ever:

Frequency (2000)

A rare atmospheric phenomenon allows a New York City firefighter to communicate with his son 30 years in the future via short-wave radio. The son uses this opportunity to warn the father of his impending death in a warehouse fire, and manages to save his life. However, what he does not realize is that changing history has triggered a new set of tragic events, including the murder of his mother. The two men must now work together, 30 years apart, to find the murderer before he strikes so that they can change history--again. Written by {} via
John Sullivan (Caviezel) is a New York City homicide officer who is traumatized for 30 years following the death of his father, Frank (Quaid), After finding Frank's HAM radio, John begins talking to Frank, 30 years into the future. Together, they change the past but have to find a way to stop a serial killer from murdering John's Mom & Frank's wife with a 30 year gap. Written by Ryan Harder {} via

If you haven't seen it, check it out!

what do I want?

dreams are just dreams, but...
no matter what my brain says
heart says otherwise

Saturday, June 16, 2007


only a week now
since I held you in my arms
I ache to see you

Friday, June 15, 2007

What is Wrong with..... this blog!?

NO, not MY Blog!

This One: What is Wrong With ..................YOU!?
I ran across it today and as far as I can tell... there is nothing wrong with it. In fact, it's quite good.
Specifically this post:
What is Wrong With.... The English Language...

Though I'm not as vehement as the author, I agree with much of what he writes.
Check it out... it's quite enjoyable.

Monday, June 11, 2007


what new dream is this?
to spend a night in your arms
oh, not new at all

Sunday, June 10, 2007


and suspension...
just hanging around
waiting for you to call me
to go hang around

My bud, The Scholar, & "Hello Kitty"

A little known fact about my friend "The Scholar"...
he has a (not so) secret love for Hello Kitty.

Just for him, I found these (somewhat odd) Hello Kitty websites:
Hello Kitty Tarot Cards
The Hello Kitty Airstream RV

My all time favorite site, where you could purchase a Hello Kitty Vibrator has been disabled, but no worries... here is someone blogging about it!

Another Urban Dictionary word...

Another of "my" words has been approved:
I say "my" because someone else actually coined the term... my good friend "The Scholar". Ah hell, he's quite accustomed to people stealing from him. "The Saint" steals jokes from him all the time.