Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Anatomy & Physiology update...

Hey! I got a 100 on my A & P final exam!! WooHoo!

Now, Anatomy & Physiology class is over.... Yippee... I have my Wednesday evenings back again.
Of course, Massage classes are still going on. I'm half way through, but Massage is infinitely more interesting than Anatomy. Okay, maybe Anatomy isn't Uninteresting... but it is less exciting than Massage Class.

There was extra credit on the exam... draw a diagram of the heart and label the chambers, valves, etc and illustrate with arrows the flow of blood through the heart.
I drew an awesome heart, it was gorgeous... maybe I can scan it for you. I'm sure you're looking forward to THAT... haha

Well, I'm hitting the sack... maybe I can sleep without dreaming of muscle sarcomeres, cell mitochondria and various bones of the hand (ie. scaphoid, lunate, triquetral, pisiform, trapezium, trapezoid, capitate, hamate).
Here's a good quiz website for A & P.

By the way...

I have an Anatomy & Physiology final Exam tonight!

Wish me luck!

Build ups and Let downs...

Wow, I had such plans for yesterday.

I had a client coming for a scheduled massage... well, that was cancelled.

I was planning to get laid!.... nope, that didn't happen.

I ended up joining my "girls" for dinner at Buffalo Wild Wings.
Now, mind you... I love hanging with my Girl Posse'. They are the greatest! But, it wasn't what I had my mind and body all worked up for...

Ah well, there's always next time.

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Look what I found...

It's amazing what you find when you do a simple web search.
Search on something innocent like "gravity inversion boots" and you might find:

Look at the author's name! Do you think this could be my long lost (evil) twin?

Thursday, February 15, 2007


While writing the last post, I learned a new medical term -
Algolagnia = Sexual gratification derived from inflicting or experiencing pain.

And I take offense at Wikipedia's definition that it's a Sexual Disorder!!

Pain, it's not just for breakfast anymore...

I have a test tonight (YES, another test)... it's on Chapter 4 in our Massage text book. Chapter 4 is entitled "The Scientific Art of Therapeutic Massage".

Key terms in this chapter:
Breathing pattern disorder, Centering, Circulation, Compression, Connective Tissue, Conservation withdrawal, Cortisol (THAT should generate some hits!), Counterirritation, Dopamine, Dynorphins, Endorphins, Enkephalins, Entrainment, Entrapment, Epinephrine/adrenaline, Gate Control Theory, General Adaptation Syndrome (Fight-or-Flight), Growth Hormone

As you can see, the chapter is basically about pain and pain management.

Does anyone else see the irony in ME studying how to REDUCE pain? But of course, those of us described as... hmm, well... masochists(?), pain-fetishists(?) - we like CERTAIN pains while others are not desirable. And most of us, at least aren't sadists (though SOME are switches)...
I have little desire to inflict pain on anyone... unless they want me to... heh. And even then, it's not really in my nature.
So I guess massage really is the career for me.

While studying Chapter 4 in class, we discussed the section called "Hyperstimulation Analgesia"(part of the gate control theory).
Which is described as diminishing the perception of a sensation (pain) by stimulating large-diameter nerve fibers. The premise is that the "large-diameter" nerve fiber sensations take precedence over the small-diameter ones.

The last sentence in the section states: "In recent years transcutaneous electrical nerve stimulation (TENS) has become a popular method of producing hyperstimulation analgesia"
Boy, oh boy..... that sentence alone had me tingling ALL OVER!

Saturday, February 10, 2007

i want my endogenous opioids...

touch... yes, touch is key
be it gentle or intense
pain is relative

will you talk to me
my desperation begs it
can you spare the time?


true friend or playmate
what is my place in your life?
I often wonder

Monday, February 05, 2007

let's get something straight...

Didn't I say from the very beginning that these were my "Ramblings"? This blog is my outlet, my journal, if you will. As I've said, it is a therapeutic way to step outside my own opinions and views to try and see things from other perspectives. It's a repository of my thoughts and my poems and for things I've found that touch me.
Yes, it's in a public forum, it's meant to be read. And I hope it is entertaining... at least some of the time. Maybe it makes you think about similar situations in your life... I hope it gives you a fresh perspective. I'd appreciate it if you tell me when it does.
I used to write (you know, pen and paper?) in a journal. But after a few weeks, that would fall by the wayside. By having this venue... where other's expect me to say something on a somewhat regular basis... this has helped me to help myself... emotionally. And believe me, I thank you so much for reading.

Sometimes, I will write a discussion I need to have with myself to work through some emotions I'm dealing with. Sometimes, it's a discussion I'd like to be having with someone in my life.... as with the last post.

If I write about happenings in my life, I will of course change many things to protect "the innocent" as I know there are a few people reading that actually know me.
Don't believe for a minute you KNOW the people involved... you may suspect... then again, perhaps that is what I want you to do... my form of misdirection. Oh how very surprised some people would be if they new all my truths. Very surprised indeed. You might find you don't know me at all.

By way of an example, read On The Need For Protective Equipment... now, you don't really think that's about Safety Equipment do you?? Come, now...

It seems the last post struck some kind of nerve with Anonymous.
Anon, I'm sorry if I upset you in some way... but, What the heck do you care? What do you know about the situation? Do you know me?
As I see it, the only people in the blogosphere that would have any idea of which I was writing are the principle players... that would be the person I'm speaking TO and the person I was speaking ABOUT, the one who "has been seen in a bad light" (who, by the way, knows what I wrote and approves).
If, Anon, you are who I suspect you to be.... you of ALL people know what it means to have a place to vent your feelings, frustrations, loves, hates, etc. You said, "perhaps you should mind your own business..." Hmm, I thought that's what I was doing. I was writing about a frustrating situation in my life as well as in the life of someone I care deeply about. Or should I say, Someones... because I care very much about both of these people. I always have.
Anon, your's was a pretty hostile response. If, by chance, you are the person to whom I was writing... I'll ask you the same, why not say it to my face?
If you are not that person, then I ask... Is it YOUR business?

Happy Bunny says,

Friday, February 02, 2007

Betrayal of Trust...

Wikipedia says:
-as a form of deception or dismissal of prior presumptions, is the breaking or violation of a presumptive social contract (trust, or confidence) that produces moral and psychological conflict within a relationship amongst individuals, between organizations or between individuals and organizations. Often betrayal is the act of supporting a rival group, or it is a complete break from previously decided upon or presumed norms by one party from the others.

When you have tremendous respect for someone and they do something to break your trust... that is the ultimate Loss.

Perhaps my trust was simply misplaced. Perhaps you never deserved that trust. Perhaps you misrepresented yourself from the very beginning or maybe I saw what I wanted to see. But I am not alone. Several of your friends believed better of you and now feel the loss. I know all the people you work with believe you're "made of gold". Can it be that the pressure of living up to THAT is causing you to let the rest of us down?

Now, you've allowed one of us to be seen in a bad light... you've allowed it because YOU know the truth and have not spoken up.

Here's my suggestion... you can say, "It was meant to be a joke." "I didn't mean for it to get out of hand" "I didn't want anyone else blamed"
How's that? Pretty simple isn't it? Please, do the right thing!