Hello? Anyone out there?

where are you, my love?

is apartness the answer?

will you want me then?

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The Client as Teacher...

After having completed 1000 massage sessions, the massage professional begins to own the information learned in school. After 5000 massage sessions, the massage professional has enough experience to begin to trust the process of massage. After 10,000 massages, the massage therapist allows the massage to happen. A master of massage has learned to respect the client and follow the client's lead. This takes years of practice.

from Mosby's Fundamentals of Therapeutic Massage by Sandy Fritz

I've done about 35 massages so far.....

BUDDHA

What we think, we become. Buddha

Your work is to discover your work and then with all your heart to give yourself to it. Buddha

Every human being is the author of his own health or disease. Buddha

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment. Buddha

In the sky, there is no distinction of east and west; people create distinctions out of their own minds and then believe them to be true. Buddha

It is a man's own mind, not his enemy or foe, that lures him to evil ways. Buddha

Quote of the day...

"Variety is the soul of pleasure."

-Aphra Behn

down, down...

huge, monolithic

pain encompasses my thoughts

want is a cruel friend

~

down...

gloomy, dreadful thoughts

misery's my companion

just want happiness

~

let me help...

do i have to beg?

please let me try to assuage

some part of your pain

~

Virginia Tech

AN AWE INSPIRING PHOTO

(received in an email... so I don't know to whom I should give the credit)

constant craving....

is it bothersome?

forgive me for the wanting

I cannot change it

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has she lost ALL her marbles?

(and after re-reading these disjointed ramblings... I think maybe I have!)

TODAY, it's so very unreal. The TERROR at Virginia Tech yesterday still rocks my world!

Okay, at the risk of sounding very Woohoo, "Out There"...

I'm coming to some rather interesting (shall I say, weird?) realizations about myself of late.
I'm not even sure I can articulate them properly yet. There is one word resonating in my head.

EMPATHIC

And more specifically - Physical Oneness: feeling what is physically going on in another person's body in one's own body

It seems that I tend to take on some of a person's pain when I'm in contact with them. I've been presented with more and more evidence of this, but is it my imagination?

I keep asking that. I just don't know. When it comes to all the "metaphysical" stuff... I've always come up short. I just didn't FEEL it. So, is it wishful thinking? I don't think so, but I'm still openly skeptical.

It's so strange how life works, how things come to be. I have to wonder if (when?) I would have seen these things in myself if I had not taken this path. And that PATH! How life brought me here... and the people who led me here... it's all so amazing.

I know I've said it before, but I'll keep saying it. Coming to school... to all my new sisters/friends... it's the BEST thing that I have ever done for myself.

To help others is the ultimate goal... but I never dreamed how much it would help ME.

So... back to yesterday's events:
I have been out of sorts since Friday evening. Really, oddly "out of sorts",

"Not Right", "Funky".

I thought it was just because I massaged a client that evening who was having a real hard time of it (emotionally)... couldn't lie still, couldn't relax, very WIRED.

Yesterday I chatted with a good friend and she was describing feelings she had been having and that they were the same feelings she had just before Columbine...
It's all too weird for me... but there it is!

WHAT have I been feeling? I don't know... but I know that right now I'm feeling incredible feelings of hurt, bewilderment and GREAT relief.

The relief is due to the fact that OUR GIRL, Jackie is okay. Jackie is the daughter of very good friends and fellow club members. We (the so called Clique) all feel like we've helped to raise her and we were all so very proud when she was accepted at Virginia Tech. And she's OKAY. She called her parents yesterday morning and I got an email from her last night.

We can't wait to "wrap our arms" around her.

Reading list...

From the Publisher

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Our physical bodies exist within a larger "body," a human energy field or aura, which is the vehicle through which we create our experience of reality, including health and illness. It is through this energy field that we have the power to heal ourselves.

This energy body -- only recently verified by scientists, but long known to healers and mystics -- is the starting point of all illness. Here, our most powerful and profound human interactions take place, the precursor and healer of all physiological and emotional disturbances.

in my dreams...

will it ever be?

can there be more time for us

pray you want that too

~

प्राणायाम - pranayama

breathe in the life force

universal energy

damn these allergies!

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