Happy New Year!

just once I'd like it

to kiss you on the clock stroke

Happy New Year, Love
~

Needy...

tears weren't just for pain

at least not the physical

childishly wanting
~

My Cast!

Can you feel it, My Love?

can you hear me sigh

that quiet murmur of love

sent to you each night?

~

Pooh said it juuuuust right...

“If you live to be 100, I hope I live to be 100 minus 1 day, so I never have to live without you.”

Movie quote of the day...

from High Fidelity

"...some people, as far as your senses are concerned... just feel like home."

YUP, I'm feelin' that one!!
I love your taste, the sound of your voice, your smell, the feel of your skin...

and I could live in your eyes.

all i want for christmas is you

I've always loved this song, especially this version from the movie Love Actually.
But this year, more than ever, it absolutely says how I feel about you!
If I could have you with me more, it would be a dream come true. BUT my dear, We have what we have and we do what we can.

I love you and you are truly ALL I want for Christmas.

iphone app - I'm enthralled!

Found this in the iphone app store for $.99!

It's called Spawn Ilumanati by Elements of Design

I cannot put it down, it's mesmerizing.

The pic above is one I created with the app.

You can see videos of Spawn on YouTube.

video 1

video 2

Wisdom from D.E.B.S. ??

It's Sunday, you know, "Sit on my Ass Day" ?
and I'm watching movies.
Right now it's D.E.B.S. a pathetic attempt to cast teen-age girls as pseudo Charlie's Angels (WAIT... Charlie's Angels was a pathetic attempt in it's own right). I say pathetic... and yet I AM watching it.

In my defense there is really nothing else on. Yup, 300+ channels and nothing else on.

I did notice one quote from the movie that caught my attention.
Here it is:

Amy: I think love should be irresistible, like a drug, you know? I think when it happens you should just not be able to help yourself...

It really sucks that this vacuous film hit on my feelings so completely and simply.

Okay, it's not Socrates.
It's not Emmerson or Shaw or even John Lennon.

It IS, however, Dead On and it is exactly how I feel about someone.

That "someone" is MY Drug of choice!

The new Atlee Kroger... Beautiful!

I took this with my iphone on my first visit to the new Kroger store in our area. Their produce section was just gorgeous. The whole store is very nice. I hope it stays that way.

Majel Barrett Roddenberry... 1932 – 2008

Rest in Peace

Gracious Lady

Wil Wheaton's blog entry

I follow Wil on Twitter, he tweeted today about Majel's death.

She was one of my favorite people in the Star Trek Universe.

time spent with you...

it is what it is

and yet it's never enough

want more and more and...

~

Worst 'Roommate Wanted' ad ever...

Oh my god this is freaking hilarious! You must read this post at The GinBlog. It is kinda long but Oh So Worth it.

"This was posted on Craigslist but then promptly removed. I was lucky enough to get a copy via email and couldn’t help but laugh and share... "

To read more, click this link (you won't be disappointed):

http://www.theginblog.com/2007/11/the-worst-roommate-wanted-ad-ever/

Ring-ding, ring-ding... tis the season.

Below is an email from a fellow Harley Owners Group Chapter member.

It's true we (bikers) do a lot of charity events and it's true that a lot of the population think we're just "bikers", "ruffians" etc.

This truly warms my heart.

I went to Michael's today to get some flowers to do some last minute crafts. You know the people who stand outside the stores and hold the bells and gather donations for the Salvation Army, well there was this sweet little old lady out there. She looked so cold. I walked passed her when I went in and she smiled at me and I saw that she noticed my jacket, yes I was wearing my Harley gear. When I came out from shopping I walked over to her and told her that they needed to give them credit card machines, I didn't carry cash and I was really sorry because I felt horrible walking into the store buying myself things and not giving any money to help benefit her cause. She looked at me and smiled, she grabbed my hand gently and said, "Oh my dear dear child, don't you think twice about that, I read in the newspaper about all that you guys do for the children and charities in the area. You all do your part all year round. God Bless your Chapter and may God be with you all always."

So if you can pass this on and let others know that in the middle of Spotsy on a rainy and nasty day, a little old lady took the time to make sure to acknowledge...........RICHMOND ROCKS!!!

M.

Richmond does, indeed, Rock!!!

Definitely Dead...

Book 6 of the Sookie Stackhouse series by Charlaine Harris

Twitter haiku...

You feel connected

a rushing river of thought

hello World, It's me!

~

Just what the doctor ordered...

having a cold sucks
but medicinal absinthe
with that, I don't care
~

"Holiday Blues"

h

holidays coming
my heart is my enemy
i feel so alone
~


is this now my fate?
did I do this to myself?
pining for your call
~

Fur...

Now for something completely different. Until now I thought Moulin Rouge! was Kidman's strangest movie, until "Fur..."

Fur: An Imaginary Portrait of Diane Arbus

In 1958, in New York City, the upper class Diane Arbus is a frustrated and lonely woman with a conventional marriage with two daughters. Her husband is a photographer sponsored by the wealthy parents of Diane, and she works as his assistant. When Lionel Sweeney, a mysterious man with hypertrichosis (a.k.a. werewolf syndrome, a disease that causes excessive body hair), comes to live in the apartment in the upper floor, Diane feels a great attraction for him and is introduced to the world of freaks and marginalized people, falling in love with Lionel. Written by Claudio Carvalho, Rio de Janeiro, Brazil

The critics weigh in on both sides regarding this movie. Many on the down side, siting the "Imaginary" aspect. No matter, I liked it quite a bit... owing, I think, to the fact that some of the characters remind me of persons in my own life. Actually, in many ways I see myself in Kidman's character. Lionel (played by Robert Downey, Jr.) reminds me of someone very important in my life. None of this is because of physical comparisons. It's much more subtle than that and I won't elaborate on that other person's personality or that of the character Lionel.
I'd rather you watched it yourself. And please, come back and tell me what you thought.

portrait by Diane Arbus
A Husband and Wife in the Woods at a Nudist Camp, N.J.,

La Fee Verte... part deux

Okay, I'm a little worried.



On my way to my evening job at the clinic I stopped at the ABC Store (for the uninitiated that's the Dept. of Alcohol Beverage Control... because we in Virginia can't be trusted to get our booze from anyone but the gov't. But I digress...).



I was looking for another brand of Absinthe to compare to the one my friend gave me. In addition to the Kübler I found 3 more brands at the store I visited: Grande Absente, Le Tourment Vert & Lucid. I bought the Lucid, mostly because it had two glasses and an absinthe spoon. The flavor is very different from the Kübler which has a very pronounced anise flavor (think very good licorice candy... um... Panda maybe?). Lucid is heavier on the herbal/bitter flavor. Where Kübler has a pleasant flavor Lucid has a more medicinal taste.

BUT Lucid packs a Wallop!

I noticed how my body reacted to Absinthe in comparison to other alcoholic beverages. I used to drink Tequila exclusively then a couple of years ago I started drinking Gin & Tonics. With both, the effect begins with my neck and shoulders, basically a muscle relaxant. But with absinthe the first thing that happened to me was my face got numb, weird but not unpleasant. Then, either the effect wore off or I forgot all about it as I started to feel good all over... just plain GOOD (not to mention a little horny, but that might have been the company more than the drink).

When I fixed my drink of Lucid last night, I used the new glass and spoon and performed the ritual with sugar cube and ice water. That's part of the allure I think.

I noticed how my lips went numb almost immediately... the effect was much more pronounced than with the Kübler. Again, not unpleasant. I'm wondering if the punch of Lucid will make up for the less pleasant taste. Maybe use Kübler for sipping and Lucid for mixing?



Anyway...



I finally went to bed around midnight and woke up... immediately... six hours later. No, really... that's how it felt, my head hit the pillow and then the alarm went off. But not in a bad way, actually I felt rested. When I got out of bed I noticed there was NO PAIN... anywhere. Wow, I hadn't felt this good in the morning since before I ran out of oxycontin... hah.



I was relating all this to my roommate. I said how good I felt then it dawned on me, this might not be a completely good thing.

Mind you, I've always been quite resistant to drugs and alcohol... which probably contributes to my not having an addictive personality (except for my addiction to certain people). But for some reason I was feeling that an absinthe every evening to sleep might not be the thing to do.

I don't drink that much and I rarely drink at home. But my roomy put it in perspective for me.

"Peg, it's only one drink for god's sake"



Heh, okay... Here's to Self-Medication.



Cheers!

Enter the Green Fairy...

"Absinthe Drinker" by Viktor Oliva

I was introduced to Absinthe this past week, a very interesting libation. I enjoyed it immensely. The really wonderful thing is, my friend left a bottle and a half with me. I've almost finished the half bottle.


I do so love a drink with a ritual...

The Classic French Absinthe Ritual

The classic French absinthe ritual involves placing a sugar cube on a flat perforated spoon, which
rests on the rim of the glass containing a measure or “dose” of absinthe. Iced water is then very
slowly dripped on to the sugar cube, which gradually dissolves and drips, along with the water, into
the absinthe, causing the green liquor to louche (“loosh”) into an opaque opalescent white as the
essential oils precipitate out of the alcoholic solution. Usually three to four parts water are added to
one part of 68% absinthe.

Poster critical of the ban on absinthe in Switzerland

my wish list...

My mother keeps saying, "I haven't gotten a list from you yet"

Which means, 'If you want a christmas gift... you'd best better tell me what you want' 

Yeah, she really talks that way.

Okay, Mom... here's ONE of my wish lists:

I really like the proliferation of "Wishlist" features on websites.  If for no other reason than they remind me of stuff I'd like to buy when I have the bucks.  

I just placed two new items on the Amazon wish list, the Nosferatu (The Ultimate Two-Disc DVD Edition)  and Metropolis (Restored Authorized Edition).

Here is my Gaiam.com gift registry

And my Barnes & Noble wishlist. 

Sookie Stackhouse fever...

Well, the True Blood finale was last night. I'm not sure how I will survive until next summer! Thank God I still have a few books left to read. I'm up to book #5 - Dead As A Doornail and have 3 left after that. And there's the True Blood Wiki with lots of resources for the fan having withdrawal tremors.

Here are a few more True Blood/Sookie Stackhouse links:

True-Blood.net

Tru Blood - The official site of the TruBlood beverage

True Blood on TV.com

True Blood Wikipedia article

Vampires, werewolves and shifters... oh my!

I'm into book number 4 of the Sookie Stackhouse series by Charlaine Harris. I'm really enjoying these books. If you like True Blood... you MUST read the books.

Next in the series...

my worth...

what do I deserve?

surely I've racked up some "points"

a kind word, at least?

~

...swim??

your actions, or lack

it sometimes make me wonder

what I mean to you

~

The Tao of Pooh, revisited

Acceptance:

"Tigger is all right really," said Piglet lazily.
"Of course he is," said Christopher Robin.
"Everybody is really," said Pooh.
"That's what I think," said Pooh.
"But I don't suppose I'm right," he said.
"Of course you are," said Christopher Robin.

and she says...

"some friend you are... haha"

You know how, when someone says something in a joking manner but you KNOW they mean it?
Yeah, you know what I'm talking about.

Well, Dear... let me ask you this, Where have YOU been? hmmm? Where were you when I needed a shoulder? I emailed, I called, I texted... I sent Christmas wishes, New Years texts, Birthday greetings. All to no avail. At the most, I got an accusing text recently which I admit I responded to very badly, it really hurt my feelings. And I apologized for the way I handled it.
Yes, I know things have been bad for you lately. But what about before that? Busy, you say. No kidding! You too huh?

I asked our mutual friend over and over if he knew WHAT exactly happened... he had no answers for me. Did I do something? Was it the last time we were together? I'm thinking it is. That was a strange time. You were... different. Did I do something to hurt you? If so, I had no idea and would never do so intentionally.

I don't know why I texted you this morning... I just wanted to know if you were okay. But I never expected a response... I never do anymore.

Why DID you call me back? Tell me... I'm listening.

anticipation...

in just a few hours

your arms will be around me

oh, welcome comfort

~

Exhaustion...

It appears that I can't please anyone any more.  Every little thing I do either annoys or disappoints... so perhaps I'll just quit trying. 

PERHAPS, I'll just do what ever pleases ME.  Let the chips fall where they may.

I'm tired of trying.

I'm tired... 

August Rush...

Another from the vault entitled "Movies Peg missed the first time around"

"You know what music is? God's little reminder that there's something else besides us in this universe; harmonic connection between all living beings, every where, even the stars."

This one is truly awesome!  This is the way music makes me feel!

HAIKU Du Jour - October 19th

a little lonely

happy birthday to me, but

Where's everyone now?

~

Psychic Connection? Naw... can't be...

Buddy,

Things are getting really strange...

all day Sunday... I could see it in my head... I SAW it happen. But I told myself, NO that won't happen. But it did... you asked for my help.

text conversation:
you - "you there"
me - "yes, of course"
you - "Do you ever sleep?"
me -"Yes, but phone's on in case you call"
you - "I may have to take you up on your offer..."
me - "I'm leaving now."

I was astonished... I was elated!
I was sleepy! (it was really really early).

So when I get there, knowing you couldn't be at the rendezvous point yet... I rode a little farther and got some gas and a drink. Heading back I had this really strong need to turn right off the main street. Driving a little way, I saw a nice scene - barn, trees, etc.... I snapped a couple of pictures. Then driving a little farther I saw a street name that felt right... so on down that road I went. And there you were... somehow, I found you. Hmmm.

My friend, it felt wonderful to be of help to you. I'm very happy to be able to help you AND the Mrs. Thanks for letting me.
Oh and thanks to Starbucks for keeping me awake for as long as it did.

The drive back home was awesome. We do entertain each other. All the talk and laughter contributed, I think, to some wrong turns and missed exits... ah well, so what?

It was a blast!
hugs & kisses

And what's she reading NOW?

QUOTE du jour...

"A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort. " ~Herm Albright

Autumn Haiku of you...

scruffy, bearded you

walking towards me so sexy

makes my heart flutter

~

another...

breathe in the feeling

let it wash all over me

love you completely

~

True Blood...

I'm completely enamored with True Blood and Bill the Vampire.

I guess I have a thing for Vampires.

thank you, luv...

a page has been turned

it's the 'taste' of the moment

so sweet is the change

~

What is peg reading now?

to you and only you...

I knew what you were going to tell me before you ever opened your mouth. I knew as soon as I got that email and I worried each day. I knew you had told him about me, I don't know how I knew... I just did. What I didn't know was exactly what he had said about it. I was pretty sure it would be a really bad thing, I figured it would mark the end. I figured it would turn my entire world up-side down, that it would end my happiness.

I was wrong.

I've never been so happy to be wrong.

a happy moment

to be thought your one true friend

wonderful feeling

~

with all my love...

at last, a bright spot

could you really have worried?

i will never leave.

~

Tuina massage: YouTube demo

Here's an interesting example of Tuina Massage. Not exactly a relaxation massage but very useful. He also gives a good demonstration of vibration.

Help for your Erection....

...Is Here!!! Oh, Yay.

Spam email is a remarkable and truly viral thing. But, Spammers, I must tell you... You're just going to have to be more imaginative if you want me to even consider reading past that line!

It's just like the junk mail in my P.O. box. If you can't even get my name right (they're still using my married name) it goes into the trash without a second glance.

And promises of $1,000,000,000? Naw, sorry.

missing you...

still care about me?

you've drifted so far away.

where have you gone now?

~

Couponizer Give Away!

Mindi at Moms Need To Know posted this giveaway... Check it out!

Click here to Enter!

Haiku Friday...

always believe it

my touch is forever here

waiting for the word

~

for my friends...

There is no medicine like hope, no incentive so great, and no tonic so powerful as expectation of something better tomorrow.

                                                                                    -- Orison Marden

My Manga

(hah, love the hooters)

Create your's at Face Your Manga

My WeeMee

Visit me in my WeeWorld

Create your WeeMee at WeeWorld

Haiku Friday...

smear it all over
douse my body with its love
wet t-shirt contest?

~

(uh... it's finally raining in central virginia)

my promise...

I hope you know I'd

take you away from it all

if that was your want

~

always holding on

I will never let you fall

reach out, take my hand

~

Haiku on the go

Disappearing too
Could cause eyebrows to be raised
Keep the status quo
~

p

sent from my iphone!

never give up, never give in...

do something for me

want never to lose you, friend

tell me day's not done

~

Uniform of the day

Well, Alrighty then...

Now that's a holiday I can get into!!

a twitter friend commented: " peg, I'd like to see the greeting cards for such a holiday. "

Check out Be Three !

do you ever feel invisible?

1. my best friend is in pain... real emotional pain.
2. and I can't help, I so want to help... I love him so very much.
3. I have a career (finally) that I love ... Massage.
4. I have lots of massage clients (lots for a part time job) and I'm thrilled.
5. I have many new friends/colleagues, and that warms my soul.
6. I feel several connections/friendships slipping away, is it something I've done or not done?
7. I have 3 more years at the 'day job', I can retire at 50!
8. I start as Teaching Assistant at the massage school in September... I love teaching, I'm so excited.
9. I start as the TEACHER at the massage school in about a year, I'm excited (and a little scared).
10. I still love teaching folks to ride motorcycles, but it takes A LOT out of me.
11. I feel I've let my Fwed down.
12. I'm empathic, sometimes that's good, sometimes NOT
13. I miss my love... I'm lonely at times.
14. I love easing pain. I want to help everyone.
15. I want to learn everything!
16. I'm up, then I'm down, then back up... I'm tired.

Maybe I just WANT to be invisible... hmmm, sometimes.

The Buddha said,

"No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path.”

Need to live by that one!

Moosey-business...

Check this out... it's guaranteed to make you smile!

I can't help but notice...

... how you never really say my name.

No, not like Destiny's Child's. You don't use nicknames either.
You address me directly but never preface it with, well... with anything. The few times you've used "Peg" or "Peggy" it's because you were irritated with me. Well, I guess you have actually called me "Dear" a couple of times but the instances have been few and far between.
And, don't get me wrong, it's not a big deal. It just makes me wonder. What does it mean? Does it MEAN anything? Is it a good thing or is it something to worry about? Is it one of your self-preservation things? And if so, how exactly does it help?
I only bring it up because I love to hear your voice and it would be nice to hear my name on your lips.

Ah, speaking of your lips...

hmmm

I struggle with choosing between “Worth doing!” and “Not worth it”...
but ultimately, it’s worth the pain.

See more progress on: Fall in love

Haiku Friday, finally...

Finally Friday,
dead tired and bone-weary
need a vacation
~

my best wishes, even though...

may his visit help

this weekend was to be mine

hope for some healing

~

Sunday, sit on my ass day...

I've had a bad week... and today I plan to sit on the couch and not move.  So that means frivolous movies.  

Here's one that was pretty cute, with no real redeemable qualities other than it made me smile:

Finally! No rain...

it's the little things...

you said it scared you

but you wouldn't let me go

walking, holding hands

~

Haiku Friday...

holiday at home

a day of celebration?

no, just of yearning

~

 

Photo of the day

Went to water my hanging plant and look what I found!

UPDATE - July 13th:

12000th Blog Hit! WooHoo!

My hit counter tripped to 12,000 today! Yay!

Jott test. I am just...

Jott test. I am just testing this out to see how Jott works with blogger. You've got to check out this utility, its pretty cool. listen

Powered by Jott

tiny fantasies...

I hear a knock on the door, you're standing there.

I know you're too busy, I know you're on your way home, I know you have a schedule to keep... but there you are.  When I open the door, you grab me and kiss me.

A long warm hug and a whisper in my ear, "I have to go, just needed to see you"

and then you're gone and I'm ever so much happier...

backdrop of anguish...

short lived, that feeling

be it gratitude or love

pales against your pain

~

Book of the day... Christopher Moore

This has to be the most hysterical book I've read in a long time.
I rarely laugh out loud while reading a book... but I did this time, several times in fact. I got some "looks" at Cici's Pizza while reading at lunchtime... oh well...

A Dirty Job A Novel
by Christopher Moore
Charlie Asher is a pretty normal guy. A little hapless, somewhat neurotic, sort of a hypochondriac. He's what's known as a Beta Male: the kind of fellow who makes his way through life by being careful and constant -- you know, the one who's always there to pick up the pieces when the girl gets dumped by the bigger/taller/stronger Alpha Male.
But Charlie's been lucky. He owns a building in the heart of San Francisco, and runs a secondhand store with the help of a couple of loyal, if marginally insane, employees. He's married to a bright and pretty woman who actually loves him for his normalcy. And she, Rachel, is about to have their first child.
Yes, Charlie's doing okay for a Beta. That is, until the day his daughter, Sophie, is born. Just as Charlie -- exhausted from the birth -- turns to go home, he sees a strange man in mint-green golf wear at Rachel's hospital bedside, a man who claims that no one should be able to see him. But see him Charlie does, and from here on out, things get really weird. . . .
People start dropping dead around him, giant ravens perch on his building, and it seems that everywhere he goes, a dark presence whispers to him from under the streets. Strange names start appearing on his nightstand notepad, and before he knows it, those people end up dead, too. Yup, it seems that Charlie Asher has been
recruited for a new job, an unpleasant but utterly necessary one:

Death. It's a dirty job. But hey, somebody's gotta do it.

Praise for A Dirty Job
"Dizzyingly inventive and hypnotically engaging, A Dirty Job is . . . like no other book I've ever read." --Gregory Maguire, author of Wicked and Son of a Witch

"One of the antic Moore's funniest capers yet." --Kirkus Reviews

ISBN: 0060590270

Published by William Morrow

hardcover 24.95 paperback $9.95

What character from "A Dirty Job" are you? Lily The Goth Girl. Nothing totaly cool happens to you, ever! You envy Asher's position of Death. you can be a real bitch, and you aren`t afraid to admit it. but still have a small ray of affection shining through.

Click Here to Take This Quiz Brought to you by YouThink.com quizzes and personality tests.

Katy Perry - I Kissed a Girl

Love this song! mmmmmmmmmm cherry chapstick!

I got your Tweet... Right here!

OH MY GOD! Like I needed another thing to eat up my time!
Granted, I'm pretty much a captive audience while at the day job (I ain't goin' nowhere)... but really!

I discovered Twitter.com a couple of months ago and I was hooked. I belong to almost every social networking (more like social playing) site there is... like myspace, facebook, irovr, fubar, even Karaoke Junkies... anyway, I found twitter and it really appealed to me. Maybe the fact that I write poetry with such tight restrictions as to word count... maybe that's why I love this "social updating" where you can only use 140 characters per message. I've always seen my haiku as tiny snapshots of my mood at any given moment. Twitter.com is tiny snapshots of your life that you share with the world, or with just the people you choose.

At Twitter... you "Tweet"... that's the verb. When you post an update you are "tweeting". Each post is a "tweet" and each member is a "tweeter".
So you tweet to your peeps! If it's someone you really like... then they're "tweeties"!
Got it?

And on top of that... there's twittervision! A phenomenal waste of time... but such FUN!

G Dewald writes about it here on his blog: unionstreetmedia.com

You know, I'm running out of time in the day for reading all my feeds, tweeting on twitter, blogging, and buying friends on myspace... I need more hours in the day!

your life, all wrapped up
hundred forty characters
ah, succinctness rules!
~

something in the water??

I'd like to know just what the hell is going on with my friends lately.

So many of them are having a really hard time.
I mentioned this before in my post Dichotomy.
My best buddy, C has been living a nightmare for over a year now. He's plugging along but it is so hard for him. I do what I can... but really, what can I do?
My friend T.J. has a less than favorable diagnosis and he too is living life as best he can. He's a fighter. And he has the love of his Sarah to keep him warm and he has many good friends.

Then there is my love, P.M. who is having trials and tribulations to deal with too. Being distant seems to be how P.M. deals with this particular problem. But that's not "how I roll" (if you don't mind me using the latest catch phrase). As I said yesterday... I have to FIX things. When I can't I agonize. So, again, What can I do?

I'm here...
I'm here for C and I'd do anything to help him.
I'm here for T.J., I listen when he wants to rant. I try to attend his karaoke gigs whenever possible... I try to be available.
And as for P.M., I love you and I'm here whenever you call and feel the need for companionship. I await your call or your email or your text... every moment of every day.
As I said in my post yesterday... I'm so very thankful to have had time with you recently and I look forward to the next time.

My life has been going so well... I only want to share it with my friends. I try to be up-beat and cheerful because I believe good vibes are so very important.

As Natalie Merchant sings: Life is Sweet!
I want you all to experience it the way I do.
I love you guys... so, so much!

breathtakingly simple...

"I will see you then, thanks for everything

Love you"

My Love,

It's truly surprising how a simple, short email can remedy EVERY bad feeling I've been having.

I have my very own psychosis...
or perhaps it's a neurosis...

I know I have done nothing wrong.
I do go overboard at times... yes, I'm aware of that. I sometimes become, for lack of a better word, compulsive. But all in all, I don't do anything to harm anyone and I try to not annoy or bother though sometimes it's impossible to avoid completely, at least where you are concerned. Most of my time is spent trying to figure out how to FIX people. And I want to fix everything for you. Of course I know that I can't and that's the most painful part for me.

The last time I saw you was perfect... at least for ME! Time alone together. Time to just hold each other. After leaving you, I was filled with the warmest glow. You know what that was? Love... plain and simple and the knowledge that I made a difference for you, however small. I was so enthralled... I never went to sleep. Then morning came and I did something I shouldn't have. Oh it wasn't a bad thing, just ill timed. I'm sure it wasn't as earth shattering as it felt to me at the moment, not at all, a rediculous thought. But I've come to realize that I second-guess my words and actions toward you lately. How will you react to This email? What will be the consequences of calling you right now? Will I annoy you? I analyze everything.
THIS is my neurosis. Intellectually, I know that you don't react... or over react to my every word or emotion. But my soul aches to make everything better for you and when I feel I've done some little thing to make things worse, I obsess! I am learning to deal with this and not freak out... but then, you KNOW me eh?

When you sent those ten little words above... I just melted.
It don't take much, do it?

Patsy Cline-ish...

So, would you like to hear one of my karaoke songs?? Well then, click here:

Peg's Law #27...

Packing away your sweaters and sweats one day

guarantees winter-like temperatures the next day!

Happy Day, Mom...

Yes, even though I did not travel out to B.F.E. today, I did call my mom to wish her Happy Mother's Day.

Never in a million years did I expect the info I got from her.

My Mom is blogging!

How weird is that??

She's a librarian and the Regional Library was participating in the 20 Things Project. As best as I can tell, it was a project to get the staff involved in blogging and learning more about the avenues of research on the world wide web. She did well enough to win an mp3 player.... (mom asks, "What is an mp3 player?"). Wow, I just can't get over it.

I told her I hoped she continued with her blog.

Sooooo, I felt like I should post SOMETHING today.

Here's a pic I took this morning to show all my irovr friends how cold and dreary it is in central Virginia today:

Economic Stimulus Payment

Economic Stimulus Payment

This is a very exciting new program that I will explain

using the Q and A format:

Q. What is an Economic Stimulus Payment?

A. It is money that the federal government will send to taxpayers.

Q. Where will the government get this money?

A. From taxpayers.

Q. So the government is giving me back my own money?

A. Only a smidgen.

Q. What is the purpose of this payment?

A. The plan is that you will use the money to purchase a high-definition TV set, thus stimulating the economy.

Q. But isn't that stimulating the economy of China?

A. Shut up.

nothing's changed...

at least nothing in MY heart.

can't make you want me

no way to make you wish it

just biding my time

~

YAEL NAIM NEW SOUL LYRICS

my new favorite!

hmm? no, no... I'm just fine...

perfectly alright

not a problem in the world

if I had no heart

~

p.m., please my dear

if you bother to read this

let me hear your voice

~

Another sleeper...

okay, I don't know if it was a sleeper or not... but I had never seen it. It was quite good, heartwarming, uplifting... all that.

Kinky Boots

Wonderful performance by

Chiwetel Ejiofor

Another track...

"No Air"

(Jordan Sparks feat. Chris Brown)

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air

If I should die before I wake

It's 'cause you took my breath away

Losing you is like living in a world with no air

Oh

I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave

My heart won't move, it's incomplete

Wish there was a way that I can make you understand

But how do you expect meto live alone with just me

'Cause my world revolves around you

It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus:]

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air

Can't live, can't breathe with no air

It's how I feel whenever you ain't there

It's no air, no air

Got me out here in the water so deep

Tell me how you gonna be without me

If you ain't here, I just can't breathe

It's no air, no air

No air, air

No air, air

No air, air

No air, air

I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew

Right off the ground to float to you

There's no gravity to hold me down for real

But somehow I'm still alive inside

You took my breath, but I survived

I don't know how, but I don't even care

So how do you expect me

to live alone with just me

'Cause my world revolves around you

It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus]

No air, air

No air, air

No air, air

No air, air

No more

It's no air, no air

[Chorus x2]

No air, air

No air, air

No air, air

No air, air